Study Hard

As you all may know I am currently studying French as part of my degree and it’s the hardest thing I’ve ever had to learn. Throughout school I just kind of coasted through all my subjects, I was lucky enough to not have to try very hard. Regrettably, this meant that I didn’t try hard and while I came out with really good grades, if I had applied myself then I could have come out with exceptional grades instead. This hindsight came a little too late but I guess I’m making up for it now. Half of my degree is in English Literature which comes very easily to me because I love reading and analysing things but learning a whole new language is infinitely complex. So now I’ve got the chance to prove to myself that I can put the effort in and study hard so that I can achieve something rather wonderful…I have the chance to learn a new language that will open up so many new doors for me, both personally and professionally.



Find the motivation – what will make you keep going even when it feels like your getting nowhere? If you have something worth striving for then you’ll keep at it.

Get some Coffee (or Matcha if you’ve been drinking to much coffee recently) – Energy is always needed on long hard days of studying. (Especially in the winter!!)

Take a Break – For every hour of studying take 15 to 20 mins to recharge so that you can stay focused on the task and not feel like it’s all blurring into one humungous pile of confusion.

Write don’t Type – As writing on paper takes more concentration than typing your more likely to remember your taking notes on – plus it gives you the chance to use all those funky notepads you’ve bought and never used.

Repeat – Repetition is key, it’s how we form habits and remember so, keep repeating and you’ll find it easier to study hard and you’ll actually remember what you’re studying.

Try out my new fave Matcha Tea from Teapigs

Trust Yourself

Having Trust in yourself is one of the hardest but most important challenges anyone experiences in life. Without that fundamental trust in yourself, how can you learn to trust another or, know your self-worth or even know where you’re going in life.

For most of my life, I have been crippled by an overbearing shyness. I am still rather shy now, but I have come a long way. At school, I had a few “friends” but I didn’t really feel like I could be myself around them, of course, teenagers go through Identity crises and what not but it also didn’t help that I simultaneously suffered from depression. The concoction of out of balance hormones and emotions really tested me, I hated the way I looked, I thought for many years that I was the ugliest girl in the world and that I was undeserving of love etc. Of course, this was all utter rubbish that my mind was feeding me but I believed it for many many years. It’s strange how your thoughts can trap you quite easily, it feels like because it’s your voice in your head that it must be the truth…


Slowly over many years I found myself balancing out, yes some days are always going to be darker and tougher than others but when you get the point of equilibrium it really is an achievement. For me, that was 2 years ago. After 7 years of feeling lost, I could finally look at myself in the mirror and tell myself that I was okay, that life is a gift and that it really does get better. To get to this point took a long time and while I regret that I lost 7 years of my life to feeling miserable and out of place in the world, I have come out the other side stronger and more determined to forge a life I want to lead. Funnily enough one of the things that helped me gain perspective in my life was this very blog, it was in finding a routine to create content that gave me a focus. I also listened (and still do) to Zen Buddhism podcasts, they helped me ground my mind and focus on the here and now which is such an important thing to master if you want to become positive and content with your life.

So what does my life look like now? 2 years after hitting my equilibrium moment I have started a degree in English Literature and French, this little Blog  will turn 3 years old this year, we have a youtube channel, I’ve started yoga again and I’ve rekindled my love for reading. While some things have changed, some things haven’t, I’m yet to have a relationship, I haven’t moved out into my own home and I am not pursuing my passions as a career yet. But while I sometimes worry that my life is unfolding far too fast, I have hope that if I work hard and trust in myself and my journey then things will fall into place.